Sunday I have my very first "race". It's The Biggest Loser Run/Walk 5k (and marathon/half marathon but I am obviously not doing that). Happily its titled as a run/walk because I am no way ready for it. I have been out of running for a month and not because I haven't wanted to but because I have felt awful, partly due to trials of 2 separate anxiety meds. Basically Albert has been a single parent for a month and has been awesome at it.
Regardless, my run is Sunday, yes this Sunday and I have only "run" (more like walked) a total of 3 times in the past month. Today's run/jog/walk was the longest, at just over 3 miles so I know I can at least make it that far. ;) Prior to this month I ran a 5k on pretty much every run I did so I wasn't to worried about this one. In fact, my plan was to train for this one to be my fastest 5k. Well, now it is more like just trying to finish it at my old, "normal", time. Sigh, so disappointed. For awhile I was worried I might not even be able to do it; I was so weak. But I am starting to feel better. My strength still isn't like it was but its closer.
This is partly why I've never done 5k races in the past, to much pressure. I like doing things in my own time, on my own way. I hate pressure, it gives me major anxiety, just ask my husband. I usually freak out or cave when up against a deadline/time/pressure. The Biggest Loser run should be fun and is definitely not a serious run in any way. Heck, the 5k has to be done at at least a pace of 30m/per mile; thats 30m to go one mile. I am pretty sure most could do that. Most races have a much faster required pace. So my goal is to run as much of it as possible and finish. Today's run was done in just over 40m so I should be able to do at least that; fingers crossed. It's supposed to be cold (high of 64) and rainy Sunday, so I am just hoping its dry enough for me to run and be done. I've run in 25 degrees before so temperature isn't to much of a concern, its the rain. I have no water repellent running gear because, well, I never run when it's raining...
So pray for me that I run it ok and that it stays dry. The race starts at 8:30 and I should be done before 9:30, so after 9:30 it can pour, just nor before please. :)
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Well being
I have decided it is time to focus on my well being. Emotionally and physically. It seems for all to long I have felt crappy in one degree or another. Whether it being my high anxiety, feeling woosey, light headed, just plain weak or at times, or all of the above. I feel like it has only gotten worse over the past year. Looking at pictures from last year I don't remember feeling nearly like I have for the last few months. I don't ever want to leave the comforts of my own home because I will feel this way some part of the time, if not the entire time gone.
It sucks, plain and simple.
Looking back there are really only a few things that have changed. Antonio starting Kindergarten and I haven't been taking a multivitamin or regularly drinking an Emergen-C. However, as many will tell you, if you eat a good diet you don't need either of those. I like to think we eat pretty darn good. Over the winter we roasted a lot of veggies which we haven't done much lately because, well, its to hot to be roasting anything.
Last week I went in for my yearly exam and talked to my dr about all of the above. She started me on a very low dosage (25mg and I have started with only taking 1/2 pill) of zoloft (since I had been on it many years ago) to see if that would help with my anxiety. It seems to have helped. On Antonio's first day of school I wasn't completely nauseous or lightheaded; only "normal" butterflies, shaky (not dizzy)and high strung. Ha. Believe it or not that is a huge improvement. :) As far as the rest of my ailments, she suggested I get back on a multivitamin to see if that helps; it surely won't hurt me. She also prescribed me to get out and run more often, even when I am lazy if I just go walk it should help too.
Friday, after Antonio was dropped at daycare my body pretty much gave up. I felt terrible. I was "doing" and feeling everything but throwing - up. I was exhausted. Today, I am feeling much better. I picked up some multivitamins at the store today so we will see if that also helps. I'll give it a couple weeks but I need to overall feel better. I am tired of feeling yuck all the time and I want to get back at enjoying life with my husband and kid instead of dreading going anywhere.
Fingers crossed its a simple change like adding a multivitamin. Praying the Zoloft works as well. I have a follow up with my Dr. regarding the Zoloft on the 17th.
It sucks, plain and simple.
Looking back there are really only a few things that have changed. Antonio starting Kindergarten and I haven't been taking a multivitamin or regularly drinking an Emergen-C. However, as many will tell you, if you eat a good diet you don't need either of those. I like to think we eat pretty darn good. Over the winter we roasted a lot of veggies which we haven't done much lately because, well, its to hot to be roasting anything.
Last week I went in for my yearly exam and talked to my dr about all of the above. She started me on a very low dosage (25mg and I have started with only taking 1/2 pill) of zoloft (since I had been on it many years ago) to see if that would help with my anxiety. It seems to have helped. On Antonio's first day of school I wasn't completely nauseous or lightheaded; only "normal" butterflies, shaky (not dizzy)and high strung. Ha. Believe it or not that is a huge improvement. :) As far as the rest of my ailments, she suggested I get back on a multivitamin to see if that helps; it surely won't hurt me. She also prescribed me to get out and run more often, even when I am lazy if I just go walk it should help too.
Friday, after Antonio was dropped at daycare my body pretty much gave up. I felt terrible. I was "doing" and feeling everything but throwing - up. I was exhausted. Today, I am feeling much better. I picked up some multivitamins at the store today so we will see if that also helps. I'll give it a couple weeks but I need to overall feel better. I am tired of feeling yuck all the time and I want to get back at enjoying life with my husband and kid instead of dreading going anywhere.
Fingers crossed its a simple change like adding a multivitamin. Praying the Zoloft works as well. I have a follow up with my Dr. regarding the Zoloft on the 17th.
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
Oso Strong
Man, I just find this so heartbreaking, so tragic. When I first heard about it I blew it off. At first, it was just another landslide and after all the rain we have had in the last month there's been a a lot.
I kept hearing more and more.
Then I saw a picture. Then another.
This was not just another mudslide; this was huge.
And so close to home.
Whoa.
Then I thought, "Oh my gosh. My Aunt and Uncle live off of 530!"
Sadly I realized I had no idea where since I hadn't seen them in years. (another post for another day) Thanks to Facebook I quickly found out they were fine, as were my cousin and his family who also live near the slide area.
I've read so many sad stories of the loss and the missing. That story of the 4 year old boy who was rescued. The boy's Mom was not at home but at work but the rest of the family is still missing. That poor boy. The fear that he experienced. Ugh. I can't even imagine. (Insert lump in throat.)
The Mom. She lost everything. Her husband, her other children. I can't imagine the pain...I just can't.
Then the Grandma, the firefighters wife, who was watching her 4 month old grand-daugher.
The people who were "just driving" on 530 who got swept away.
The list, the stories, they just go on. Each one just as heart breaking as the others.
Today I went into work. I was not prepared for the stories to become real. The driver of Darrington Hardware. Normally happy and upbeat, looked full of grief. A friend of his is missing....
A customer came in and the transaction started out normal. Then at the end he brought up the slide. His teenage son plays indoor football in Marysville, with the older brother of the 4 year old. Ugh. You could see his heart was broken. He mentioned that his son's team was to be at a game in Spokane Saturday, but it was canceled Friday. That family (of the 4 year old) would have been there, not at home when the slide happened. He knew that family, talked to them numerous times at the football games. He said the team have yellow ribbons to put on their jersey's. Yellow was the kids favorite color.
These people who have been affected, they aren't just in Oso or Darrington. They are everywhere; in all our local communities. Take the time to smile a little more frequently because chances are, at least one person you see will be somehow heartbroken by something in their life. Remember to kiss those you love and remind them just how much they mean to you because you just never know.
And pray for those who have lost family members, friends, or co-workers and for those who are still missing. They say some may never be found, again, I can't even imagine and I am so thankful I don't have to.
I kept hearing more and more.
Then I saw a picture. Then another.
This was not just another mudslide; this was huge.
And so close to home.
Whoa.
Then I thought, "Oh my gosh. My Aunt and Uncle live off of 530!"
Sadly I realized I had no idea where since I hadn't seen them in years. (another post for another day) Thanks to Facebook I quickly found out they were fine, as were my cousin and his family who also live near the slide area.
I've read so many sad stories of the loss and the missing. That story of the 4 year old boy who was rescued. The boy's Mom was not at home but at work but the rest of the family is still missing. That poor boy. The fear that he experienced. Ugh. I can't even imagine. (Insert lump in throat.)
The Mom. She lost everything. Her husband, her other children. I can't imagine the pain...I just can't.
Then the Grandma, the firefighters wife, who was watching her 4 month old grand-daugher.
The people who were "just driving" on 530 who got swept away.
The list, the stories, they just go on. Each one just as heart breaking as the others.
Today I went into work. I was not prepared for the stories to become real. The driver of Darrington Hardware. Normally happy and upbeat, looked full of grief. A friend of his is missing....
A customer came in and the transaction started out normal. Then at the end he brought up the slide. His teenage son plays indoor football in Marysville, with the older brother of the 4 year old. Ugh. You could see his heart was broken. He mentioned that his son's team was to be at a game in Spokane Saturday, but it was canceled Friday. That family (of the 4 year old) would have been there, not at home when the slide happened. He knew that family, talked to them numerous times at the football games. He said the team have yellow ribbons to put on their jersey's. Yellow was the kids favorite color.
These people who have been affected, they aren't just in Oso or Darrington. They are everywhere; in all our local communities. Take the time to smile a little more frequently because chances are, at least one person you see will be somehow heartbroken by something in their life. Remember to kiss those you love and remind them just how much they mean to you because you just never know.
And pray for those who have lost family members, friends, or co-workers and for those who are still missing. They say some may never be found, again, I can't even imagine and I am so thankful I don't have to.
Sunday, March 16, 2014
Anxiety.
I am pretty sure I have anxiety issues.
Going anywhere out of routine I get nervous, upset stomach (nauseous) and need to consciously breathe. No, I am not kidding, I get like this anytime we (I) go anywhere that is not in my normal day to day routine. On the way to taking Antonio to school on the day I was helping out in his classroom, I was a wreck. When I pulled a muscle in my back last week and was driving to the walk-in; I was a wreck. The list goes on, it's awful. When Antonio gets sick, it's the same thing.
There ought to be an anxiety pill specifically for Mom's (and Dad's too) for when their kid(s), baby, is sick. Really, there should be. Antonio has a bug. He woke up this morning sneezy, and a runny nose but nothing more. He ate like normal and acted normal so we went out our day. It wasn't until he asked to go up and take a nap (in his bed) in the middle of my workout...at 11:15 that I got concerned. I finished up, only about 10 min., and went up to check on him. Sure enough, he was in his bed with the light off, watching a show on his iPad, half asleep. He said he felt sick and needed to rest. I thought ok, go ahead and rest. He had a hard time breathing through his nose so I filled and turned on his humidifier. After about 20m he fell asleep, a good hour and a half before he usually naps. He slept for 1hr and 45m.
When he woke up he felt warm and my anxiety kicked in. He had gone to bed without lunch so I asked him if he was hungry for lunch, he said no. My anxiety kicked up another notch, he must really feel sick. We watched Toy Story while he clearly had a temperature by now. I convinced him to eat some apples and toast, which he did. When Toy Story was over he said he was sleepy and needed to back to his bed and snooze. By now he was feeling hot and was very lethargic. It was true, he caught a bug. He stayed in bed the rest of the afternoon and into the evening. He let me change his clothes so I could get him into jammies but thats about it. He wanted me or Albert to sit with him the whole time. :( Poor kid. We gave him a dose of tylenol to help him sleep and tucked him in for the night.
Here I lay, worried about him. My anxiety level is through the roof, partly feeling sick myself. Am I getting sick? Will he sleep through the night? Will he throw-up? Will his temperature go down? What happens if his temperature gets higher? What if, what if, WHAT IF??? I know in a week, hopefully much sooner, this will be a distant memory but for right now, as Peg in Peg + Cat (a PBS kid show) says, I am totally freaking out! :)
Damn you anxieties, damn you.
Going anywhere out of routine I get nervous, upset stomach (nauseous) and need to consciously breathe. No, I am not kidding, I get like this anytime we (I) go anywhere that is not in my normal day to day routine. On the way to taking Antonio to school on the day I was helping out in his classroom, I was a wreck. When I pulled a muscle in my back last week and was driving to the walk-in; I was a wreck. The list goes on, it's awful. When Antonio gets sick, it's the same thing.
There ought to be an anxiety pill specifically for Mom's (and Dad's too) for when their kid(s), baby, is sick. Really, there should be. Antonio has a bug. He woke up this morning sneezy, and a runny nose but nothing more. He ate like normal and acted normal so we went out our day. It wasn't until he asked to go up and take a nap (in his bed) in the middle of my workout...at 11:15 that I got concerned. I finished up, only about 10 min., and went up to check on him. Sure enough, he was in his bed with the light off, watching a show on his iPad, half asleep. He said he felt sick and needed to rest. I thought ok, go ahead and rest. He had a hard time breathing through his nose so I filled and turned on his humidifier. After about 20m he fell asleep, a good hour and a half before he usually naps. He slept for 1hr and 45m.
When he woke up he felt warm and my anxiety kicked in. He had gone to bed without lunch so I asked him if he was hungry for lunch, he said no. My anxiety kicked up another notch, he must really feel sick. We watched Toy Story while he clearly had a temperature by now. I convinced him to eat some apples and toast, which he did. When Toy Story was over he said he was sleepy and needed to back to his bed and snooze. By now he was feeling hot and was very lethargic. It was true, he caught a bug. He stayed in bed the rest of the afternoon and into the evening. He let me change his clothes so I could get him into jammies but thats about it. He wanted me or Albert to sit with him the whole time. :( Poor kid. We gave him a dose of tylenol to help him sleep and tucked him in for the night.
Here I lay, worried about him. My anxiety level is through the roof, partly feeling sick myself. Am I getting sick? Will he sleep through the night? Will he throw-up? Will his temperature go down? What happens if his temperature gets higher? What if, what if, WHAT IF??? I know in a week, hopefully much sooner, this will be a distant memory but for right now, as Peg in Peg + Cat (a PBS kid show) says, I am totally freaking out! :)
Damn you anxieties, damn you.
Wednesday, March 5, 2014
God, are you there?
*First and foremost, please don't judge me (or this post). These are MY thoughts and beliefs only. I know some of you may not agree but thats ok. And lastly, I don't want to be "preached" to about any of this.
As some of you have read in Antonio's blog we finally decided to send Antonio to the school up the road from us instead of where he goes now. As mentioned, one of my favorite things about his current school is that he is learning about God, which he most definitely won't learn about in a public school. When I asked him yesterday if he knew what tomorrow (today) was (his day to spend with Papa) he responded with "chapel day at school." I asked what he does in chapel time and he happily said, "I learn about God.". That made my heart full. :)
After reading the post, one of my dearest and most faithful friends, texted me with, "Ya know, you could always take Antonio to church to learn about God. :)". She has a point, which then started a brief conversation via text about why I (we) don't go to church and it started me thinking.
A big part of it is that I am not really sure what I believe. I do believe in God but, is it only because that is what I was brought up to believe? I do believe there is something bigger than me/us but I am not exactly sure what. Then there's that "what denomination do I fall under?" question. I need a crash course on each one. What is the difference between each one?
I do believe we are equal and should be treated that way. I also strongly believe we should be able to love (and marry) whomever we want. I also believe in abortion but never as a form of birth control. I want to be able to drink wine/alcohol (as much as I want at any given time) without being frowned on or judged. I, 100%, believe everything happens for a reason. I would like to be able to become friends with people from a church and be able to have some conversations that never mention the subject God. I would like to "belong" to a church but not actually "go" to church. Does that make sense?
I would love to be able to send Antonio to Sunday school, leave him and then go back and pick him up later. Ha. Seriously though, the whole church thing is intimidating. All the praying, singing, preaching all at once is a bit much for me. I want to pray, think and talk about God whenever I want, in my own time and on my own terms; not specifically every Sunday for an hour. Yes, someday I'd like to attend a church but I don't want to ever force Albert, let alone Antonio to go with me. I do know that I don't have to go to church to have God love me or to go to Heaven.
Thank you Erin for never scolding me (for things I've done that I know you didn't agree with) or forcing me to believe what you believe. And thank you for always loving me for me enough to ask "those" questions without pushing. :)
As some of you have read in Antonio's blog we finally decided to send Antonio to the school up the road from us instead of where he goes now. As mentioned, one of my favorite things about his current school is that he is learning about God, which he most definitely won't learn about in a public school. When I asked him yesterday if he knew what tomorrow (today) was (his day to spend with Papa) he responded with "chapel day at school." I asked what he does in chapel time and he happily said, "I learn about God.". That made my heart full. :)
After reading the post, one of my dearest and most faithful friends, texted me with, "Ya know, you could always take Antonio to church to learn about God. :)". She has a point, which then started a brief conversation via text about why I (we) don't go to church and it started me thinking.
A big part of it is that I am not really sure what I believe. I do believe in God but, is it only because that is what I was brought up to believe? I do believe there is something bigger than me/us but I am not exactly sure what. Then there's that "what denomination do I fall under?" question. I need a crash course on each one. What is the difference between each one?
I do believe we are equal and should be treated that way. I also strongly believe we should be able to love (and marry) whomever we want. I also believe in abortion but never as a form of birth control. I want to be able to drink wine/alcohol (as much as I want at any given time) without being frowned on or judged. I, 100%, believe everything happens for a reason. I would like to be able to become friends with people from a church and be able to have some conversations that never mention the subject God. I would like to "belong" to a church but not actually "go" to church. Does that make sense?
I would love to be able to send Antonio to Sunday school, leave him and then go back and pick him up later. Ha. Seriously though, the whole church thing is intimidating. All the praying, singing, preaching all at once is a bit much for me. I want to pray, think and talk about God whenever I want, in my own time and on my own terms; not specifically every Sunday for an hour. Yes, someday I'd like to attend a church but I don't want to ever force Albert, let alone Antonio to go with me. I do know that I don't have to go to church to have God love me or to go to Heaven.
Thank you Erin for never scolding me (for things I've done that I know you didn't agree with) or forcing me to believe what you believe. And thank you for always loving me for me enough to ask "those" questions without pushing. :)
Sunday, February 9, 2014
Kindergarten
Private or public
That is the question.
We had conferences last week for Antonio and turns out he is ready for Kindergarten! I was happy, excited, nervous and anxious all at the same time. That means Antonio is doing great socially and academically; which we kinda assumed!
However, that leads to the question. Go private or public?
Where he goes now they also have Kindergarten (and 1st grade). We love it there and have heard amazing things about their program. If we kept him there, he would go all day 8:50-2:45 M-Th with Friday being a half day. Of course that comes with a fee but we then would not have to pay for daycare. I could drop him every morning and Albert could pick him up. Timing works well. That does however assume our schedules wouldn't change. If they did we could be in a big pinch. The offset would save us money, not a lot but some. However, we would loose Mrs. Rosemary who we absolutely love. We are lucky enough to have her willing to told a spot for Antonio to be able to be there during the Summer. Yay! The ability to have her there to fall back on if needed (Winter/spring breaks etc) would not be there though. That is a bit stressful to me. The other negative is that he would go there (school) and then go to public in 1st grade. He wold have to make friends all over again. :/ However, his current teachers mentioned that he has made friends fairly easily this year.
For public school he would go to Sunnyside Elementary which appears from the road to be a bunch of portables. I admit, I have not gone up close to see them but that alone makes me lean the other direction. The kids at Rosemary's all go there. Mason, who is closest in age to Antonio is in Kindergarten there now and William (Rosemary's son) went there and is in 1st grade now; so he'd have a couple friends there and on the bus. Rosemary says Sunnyside is great now and that it's the best it's been in awhile. Apparently they have a new principle who is very hands on. If we send him to Sunnyside we will keep him at Rosemary's and continue to pay her (obviously) year round but would still be saving money compared to this year because we won't be paying for Pre-K. On days he goes to Ms. Rosemary's he would be picked up from her house and taken to school by bus (which makes me nervous) so the to/from school aspect is easy with public school. Also, on school breaks he would go to Ms. Rosemary's versus us having to stay home with him (if we went private).
In a sense for me, it really breaks down to this;
Go private and get an excellent education and be very comfortable with the school but Albert/I would have to take time off of work for no school days & hope our schedules stay flexible.
Go public and stress level for me goes down as far as child care but education and school would be basic.
We save money either way. Albert really likes where he is now (as do I) and seems to be leaning that way but the lack of childcare/back up plan stresses me out. I hate leaning on my Mom so much. Not that she'd be much help with the Winter/Spring breaks etc. I hope to tour Sunnyside this week or next. Registration starts Tuesday, the 11th, for where we are now and is open until it fills up. Sunnyside is now until June. Why is this so stressful. Part of me wishes there were just no options. Sigh.... Wish me luck!
That is the question.
We had conferences last week for Antonio and turns out he is ready for Kindergarten! I was happy, excited, nervous and anxious all at the same time. That means Antonio is doing great socially and academically; which we kinda assumed!
However, that leads to the question. Go private or public?
Where he goes now they also have Kindergarten (and 1st grade). We love it there and have heard amazing things about their program. If we kept him there, he would go all day 8:50-2:45 M-Th with Friday being a half day. Of course that comes with a fee but we then would not have to pay for daycare. I could drop him every morning and Albert could pick him up. Timing works well. That does however assume our schedules wouldn't change. If they did we could be in a big pinch. The offset would save us money, not a lot but some. However, we would loose Mrs. Rosemary who we absolutely love. We are lucky enough to have her willing to told a spot for Antonio to be able to be there during the Summer. Yay! The ability to have her there to fall back on if needed (Winter/spring breaks etc) would not be there though. That is a bit stressful to me. The other negative is that he would go there (school) and then go to public in 1st grade. He wold have to make friends all over again. :/ However, his current teachers mentioned that he has made friends fairly easily this year.
For public school he would go to Sunnyside Elementary which appears from the road to be a bunch of portables. I admit, I have not gone up close to see them but that alone makes me lean the other direction. The kids at Rosemary's all go there. Mason, who is closest in age to Antonio is in Kindergarten there now and William (Rosemary's son) went there and is in 1st grade now; so he'd have a couple friends there and on the bus. Rosemary says Sunnyside is great now and that it's the best it's been in awhile. Apparently they have a new principle who is very hands on. If we send him to Sunnyside we will keep him at Rosemary's and continue to pay her (obviously) year round but would still be saving money compared to this year because we won't be paying for Pre-K. On days he goes to Ms. Rosemary's he would be picked up from her house and taken to school by bus (which makes me nervous) so the to/from school aspect is easy with public school. Also, on school breaks he would go to Ms. Rosemary's versus us having to stay home with him (if we went private).
In a sense for me, it really breaks down to this;
Go private and get an excellent education and be very comfortable with the school but Albert/I would have to take time off of work for no school days & hope our schedules stay flexible.
Go public and stress level for me goes down as far as child care but education and school would be basic.
We save money either way. Albert really likes where he is now (as do I) and seems to be leaning that way but the lack of childcare/back up plan stresses me out. I hate leaning on my Mom so much. Not that she'd be much help with the Winter/Spring breaks etc. I hope to tour Sunnyside this week or next. Registration starts Tuesday, the 11th, for where we are now and is open until it fills up. Sunnyside is now until June. Why is this so stressful. Part of me wishes there were just no options. Sigh.... Wish me luck!
Saturday, December 28, 2013
I want a "do-over"
Christmas always has such a big build-up. And it's usually a build-up to Christmas morning and within an hour or so you are either on a "christmas high" or left feeling completely let down. I saw a lot of people on Facebook and Twitter complaining about a "Christmas hangover" even though they didn't drink anything.
I felt the same way.
This was the year of duplicate gifts too. I went to 3 separate gatherings and at each one, at least 1 person received a duplicate gift. It was weird (and dissappointing), rarely does that happen.
Antonio asked for two things from Santa; a Buzz Lightyear and a guitar. At the Schneidler get together, his cousin Anna drew his name (all the cousins draw names and exchange gifts) and just happened to have a Buzz Lightyear (and two Jessie's)! So he got that from her and he was happy. In fact Christmas Eve we went over to our neighbors for a bit and he, our neighbor asked Antonio what he wanted; Antonio told him but then said that he already got a Buzz Lightyear but not the guitar and that was ok. Apparently he thought THAT was Christmas. He was so causal about not getting the guitar and so we explained that Santa hadn't even come yet. It was good to know he'd be ok without!
Well Christmas morning came and of course Santa brought his guitar. He exclaimed, "I got everything I wanted!". Then turned around to point at all the other gifts saying, "I didn't even want all the other stuff." Point taken kid; next year we will only get what he asks for. It will surely save us some money! :) So that alone was awesome. Antonio got what he wanted and he was so happy!
However, it went downhill fast from there. We went to my Aunts for the afternoon and dinner only to have to leave before dinner because Antonio got sick. Not just not feeling good, but throwing up. :( It was awful. We quickly gathered our things and left. We were home by 5, without a Christmas dinner. Poor Antonio looked terrible too. Happily he woke up the next more feeling better! Phew.
Christmas eve we did nothing. Albert and I both ran but that was about it. It was nice but looking back, I wished we had done something Christmasy. A part of me feels robbed out of the Christmas fun. In the sense that Christmas Eve we did nothing then Christmas morning came and went only to be home before 5 with no dinner and then just like that it was over. :/
I want a do over.
I would have us all do something as a family, maybe a new tradition, on Christmas Eve. Christmas day have it not be so rushed (arrived late at my Aunts then left early) and not have Antonio get sick (obviously) so he could have fun with his cousins and then have a big yummy dinner. Sigh. I know we don't always get what we want and things definitely don't always go how we want them to (or expect them to), especially with a kid. But I LOVE Christmas time. We usually keep all our decorations, tree included, up until after New Years but Antonio asked it we could take it all down today and I was strangely ok with it. It was just a weird Christmas this year.
I especially can't wait for next year now; it will bet better.
Only 362 more days until Christmas! :)
I felt the same way.
This was the year of duplicate gifts too. I went to 3 separate gatherings and at each one, at least 1 person received a duplicate gift. It was weird (and dissappointing), rarely does that happen.
Antonio asked for two things from Santa; a Buzz Lightyear and a guitar. At the Schneidler get together, his cousin Anna drew his name (all the cousins draw names and exchange gifts) and just happened to have a Buzz Lightyear (and two Jessie's)! So he got that from her and he was happy. In fact Christmas Eve we went over to our neighbors for a bit and he, our neighbor asked Antonio what he wanted; Antonio told him but then said that he already got a Buzz Lightyear but not the guitar and that was ok. Apparently he thought THAT was Christmas. He was so causal about not getting the guitar and so we explained that Santa hadn't even come yet. It was good to know he'd be ok without!
Well Christmas morning came and of course Santa brought his guitar. He exclaimed, "I got everything I wanted!". Then turned around to point at all the other gifts saying, "I didn't even want all the other stuff." Point taken kid; next year we will only get what he asks for. It will surely save us some money! :) So that alone was awesome. Antonio got what he wanted and he was so happy!
However, it went downhill fast from there. We went to my Aunts for the afternoon and dinner only to have to leave before dinner because Antonio got sick. Not just not feeling good, but throwing up. :( It was awful. We quickly gathered our things and left. We were home by 5, without a Christmas dinner. Poor Antonio looked terrible too. Happily he woke up the next more feeling better! Phew.
Christmas eve we did nothing. Albert and I both ran but that was about it. It was nice but looking back, I wished we had done something Christmasy. A part of me feels robbed out of the Christmas fun. In the sense that Christmas Eve we did nothing then Christmas morning came and went only to be home before 5 with no dinner and then just like that it was over. :/
I want a do over.
I would have us all do something as a family, maybe a new tradition, on Christmas Eve. Christmas day have it not be so rushed (arrived late at my Aunts then left early) and not have Antonio get sick (obviously) so he could have fun with his cousins and then have a big yummy dinner. Sigh. I know we don't always get what we want and things definitely don't always go how we want them to (or expect them to), especially with a kid. But I LOVE Christmas time. We usually keep all our decorations, tree included, up until after New Years but Antonio asked it we could take it all down today and I was strangely ok with it. It was just a weird Christmas this year.
I especially can't wait for next year now; it will bet better.
Only 362 more days until Christmas! :)
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