I have decided it is time to focus on my well being. Emotionally and physically. It seems for all to long I have felt crappy in one degree or another. Whether it being my high anxiety, feeling woosey, light headed, just plain weak or at times, or all of the above. I feel like it has only gotten worse over the past year. Looking at pictures from last year I don't remember feeling nearly like I have for the last few months. I don't ever want to leave the comforts of my own home because I will feel this way some part of the time, if not the entire time gone.
It sucks, plain and simple.
Looking back there are really only a few things that have changed. Antonio starting Kindergarten and I haven't been taking a multivitamin or regularly drinking an Emergen-C. However, as many will tell you, if you eat a good diet you don't need either of those. I like to think we eat pretty darn good. Over the winter we roasted a lot of veggies which we haven't done much lately because, well, its to hot to be roasting anything.
Last week I went in for my yearly exam and talked to my dr about all of the above. She started me on a very low dosage (25mg and I have started with only taking 1/2 pill) of zoloft (since I had been on it many years ago) to see if that would help with my anxiety. It seems to have helped. On Antonio's first day of school I wasn't completely nauseous or lightheaded; only "normal" butterflies, shaky (not dizzy)and high strung. Ha. Believe it or not that is a huge improvement. :) As far as the rest of my ailments, she suggested I get back on a multivitamin to see if that helps; it surely won't hurt me. She also prescribed me to get out and run more often, even when I am lazy if I just go walk it should help too.
Friday, after Antonio was dropped at daycare my body pretty much gave up. I felt terrible. I was "doing" and feeling everything but throwing - up. I was exhausted. Today, I am feeling much better. I picked up some multivitamins at the store today so we will see if that also helps. I'll give it a couple weeks but I need to overall feel better. I am tired of feeling yuck all the time and I want to get back at enjoying life with my husband and kid instead of dreading going anywhere.
Fingers crossed its a simple change like adding a multivitamin. Praying the Zoloft works as well. I have a follow up with my Dr. regarding the Zoloft on the 17th.
