No I am not pregnant.
August 28th, I will be a stay at home Mom!
Eek!
We have refinanced our home and will be saving some money with that, enough that, without paying for daycare and not working it will be similar to when I worked part time. This is a big change for us and I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little nervous about it but it will be for the best; for all of us. I do realize that starting in September Antonio will be going to school all day, so you may wonder what the point is. Well, I really enjoyed volunteering in his class the few times I did last year and hope to become a regular volunteer this coming year in his class. I really liked knowing what he was learning, what he was expected to do (and really could do) and who his friends were. I look forward to that again. I am also looking forward to being more involved in his life. Now, I feel like I drop him at daycare, go to work, come home, eat dinner then put him to bed. It's not quite to that bad but practically and I feel badly for it. I look forward to having more quality time as a family too. Right now, Albert and I have different days off and that sucks. I also hope to look into finding something/somewhere I can volunteer while Antonio is at school, get more involved in my community. As my outside salesman, who also hired me, told me, "you have so many skills that are wasted working here (MMCO). Find something your heart likes to do and do it now that you have the chance.". His compliments are rare, but when they happen, they are good ones. :) So thats what I hope to do. Also, I'll have no excuse for not running!
Over the past year I have become more and more unhappy at my job. Anywhere from feeling very unappreciated from my boss to lack of a pay raise (in 6+ years!) and benefits to just completely being frustrated with the way things work. I love working with the group of guys (and 2 gals in our other building) at my location; they are like family to me. A very dysfunctional family but I'll miss them so much, even the two newer guys. :) As most of you know, I tend to be pretty emotional. While telling one paticular co-worker Wednesday about my resignation I found myself fighting back the tears. I was so nervous to tell him and it makes me incredibly sad to know that I will not be seeing him on a regular basis. He and I have worked together for about 8 years. This group of guys mean so much to me, they make me laugh so hard while also making me so frustrated. :) I know for a fact I would have never met any of these guys if it weren't for Mutual and for that I am grateful. I have worked there for 12 years as of September, so it will be very bittersweet on that last day. The daily sh!t throwing has already started; it will be a long 4 weeks. Ha.
On the flip side, I have already felt the "release of stress" from knowing I won't have to be there everyday. Since I respect and care so much for these guys, I constantly stress and have anxiety over missing work due to illness, whether it be myself or Antonio, or wanting to take a day off. It was a constant tug of war with my heart. Now I know if Antonio is sick or something comes up that I want to be at, I can be. That alone is such a great feeling.
This will be an adjustment for us but I know we will make it work and soon find our groove. Albert has already said he's excited to not have to stress over what to make for dinner. Haha. I have such a good guy! We won't get to splurge as much as we do now and the essential oil monthly shipments will be stopped and stitch fix boxes will be not as often as well as some other things but it's all worth it.
So please send us good vibes over the next couple months that I am able to finish out my time at work without to much grief from the guys (yeah right!) and that we find our groove sooner than later. I am looking forward to our next chapter and being a Mama and wife first!
