I can feel it in my pants specifically. I am starting to revert back to my old ways down that rabbit hole.
Since returning to work full-time after only being part time for about 2 years I rarely have a chance to run, mainly because it is dark out after work (and dinner) or raining. On the weekends its been raining so much its hard to fit in a run and well, I don't run in the rain, rarely did I before too. When I do run it is hard, like when I was starting out. I still try to get in 3 miles but it is so hard. I figure any run, short or long, fast or incredibly slow is better than no run at all. Since the runs I have gone on, I'm lucky if its once a week, have been so hard, it does not give me any motivation to go run. I know all I need is to get back in a routine and run more frequently so when I do run it isn't so hard. I miss craving the runs. I'm looking forward to summer so I can run in the evenings. However, in the meantime, I am thinking of joining a gym again so I can get back to running. A Planet Fitness just opened up down the road from me and they are pretty cheap so I may try them out. I just need a climate controlled place to run, for now to try to get back on track.
I've fallen slightly down that eating rabbit hole. The one where my pants are more snug, I feel more bloated, lethargic and over all crappy about myself so I eat and be lazy (need less to say I don't sleep nearly as well at night as I did before). You know, that busted can of biscuits feeling, all the time. And by eat, I mean more crappy food. Thankfully since we've become healthier eaters even the crap isn't so bad, but still. I find myself eating more "easy" foods instead of fruit and veggies. And dinners this past winter have lacked the roasted veggies, almost completely. It doesn't even sound good like it did last year, and all that chopping... I have no motivation. :/ So that rabbit hole where I know what I should be eating and doing but I don't which makes me feel worse so I eat worse and exercise less because I am not doing what I should, so I don't have the motivation to do what I should and so on...
Happily this time around, I have experienced the feeling good, so I know I can get there again, I just need to try to get back on track. I can only blame working full-time so much. Sure, it gives me a lot less time to exercise/plan dinners and cook them but I need to try to get back at that. I am hoping that once I get back in routine and start to feel more energy, some of it might fall back in place. I hope.
