Getting "crunchy"

I'm (we're) getting a little crunchy here. At least thats what it seems. I have always seemed to be more on the, "if it happens to be good for the environment, then great" or "if it's healthy or organic, its only  by chance" side of things. I've always cared but not as much as I should.

Then Albert had to go and start running, which turned into him wanting to eat better, which turned him into becoming vegan. (Don't get me wrong, I am incredibly proud of him and how healthy he's become. He's the main reason I started running and have become a healthy eater as well.) Then I realized dairy products negatively effected me so I cut out dairy. Then we started getting weekly organic food deliveries from Klesick Family Farm (which we love). 

Now, after trying to combat my anxiety (which has become pretty intense over the past year) with 2 different prescription drugs and facing severe side effects with each, I've decided to look for an alternative way(s) to calm my anxiety. I don't expect to rid myself of anxiety but if I could just cut down my anxieties to half, I'd be thrilled. I would love to be able to get in my car and go (anywhere) without feeling nauseous, sweaty, tense, light headed and feeling a rapid heartbeat. Even walking out to meet Antonio's bus I feel this way. The only, and I mean only, place/time I don't feel this way is at home. Once I am home and I'm almost always suddenly better. I don't go out and do things solely so I don't have to deal with feeling this way. :/

I have looked in to essential oils and will probably try them out. From what I've read, even if they don't help with my anxiety much there are other things I can use them for. Also, probiotics. There have been studies that have shown there is a direct link to the gut and the brain. If the gut is "happy" so is the brain. Again, if the probiotics don't directly help with my anxieties, they could help with the stomach issues I've had my whole life. Another thing I am going to try is yoga. Yeah, I am not sure if I'm coordinated enough to do it, but I am going to try. I'm just going to try some videos at home before I potentially embarrass myself at a class. Yoga is another thing that some people swear by; its supposed to be beneficial is many ways so if it doesn't help with anxiety it is just another thing that will help me. 

Last but not least, is diet. What we eat can be directly be linked to how we feel, duh. We already eat so much healthier that we did 2 years ago, so in my opinion, there isn't much left to change. Albert would argue this however. He has (strongly) suggested to eat more like him, vegan. I could almost call myself a vegan but not completely. I rarely eat meat but when I have the option to I usually do. Maybe not always steak but chicken. We don't eat it at home but if we go out (which is rarely) I do and I am not sure I am ready to go that extreme. I still salivate over a nice juicy steak, just typing it is making me want one...

I digress. Anyways, the diet part of things will have to stay the same, for now because I am not ready to convert. One last thing I may do is see a counselor. I've heard from a few friends that they go and going is have been very helpful for their own reasons. If the oils, probiotics and yoga don't help, before I go back to prescriptions I will probably try the counselor route. In the meantime, please send positive, calming thoughts my way. And as always, prayers are always welcome. I just really want to go back to enjoying life outside my home with my amazing little family. Until then, I am going to try to focus and breath deeply. ;)